Cikton and Mok

It was a night after our pre graduation. Watched movie title Dilan 1991. I went out with Ekin, Aten, Anis and Mok during the day and on the night we went out again after drop by three of them. Just having a small conversation in his car. Suddenly we saw Cikton's car. He parked beside us then Mok started his car engine and we went to cafe. In the car I decided to tell Cikton the truth about us. Mok asked me to told Cikton. Just the two of us and he will join me later. To be honest it was a night that full with tears and laugh. I cried. A lot. Told Cikton I have my own reason why I didnt tell him about us because we got so many heart to take care of. Honestly banyak hati aku dengan Mok kena jaga. We used to take care of people's heart and feelings until hati sendiri koyak rabak. Almost a year but issa okay. Dah biasa makan hati. Well the reality was Cikton was the last person that knew about us. I mean of course there were certain people yang tak tahu lagi about us and everything kantoi during the pre grad night. But Cikton is the person that very close to my heart and he also the last person yang tahu about us. Issa kinda awkward to tell him since I know he was not so close with Mok. 

Told Cikton that I dont feel like I am a good enough to be his best friend because I didnt tell him since we agreed that best friend will share everything. Am so touched the moment Cikton told me that that is my personal things and he doesnt hv right to intefere. He respect my privacy though. Plus he already knew and want to hear the truth from me. Not any one. At the end of our discussion am so glad that both of them are good and can get along because of me. Thank you Cikton and Mok. 

You found me

After so many years you came. After four years. I try my best to run away from you and suddenly you found me. I try my very best. Why you came? What do you want from me? I cant get my old life back since you left me so can I live my life happily? I create new account so that I can run away from you. Account lama tu banyak kenangan lama and it remind me of you. I dont want to miss you anymore although sometimes I do. Goshhh I type this while Youtube is playing Bila Rindu by Ruffedge *cry inside* You asked me if I run away and hide from you. Truth to be told YESSSSS I am running away and hiding from you. Sorry if this hurt you but that's the truth. The fact that you still remember my birthday broke my heart into pieces.