HAAAAA????

WHAT IS THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS?????????

I MEAN WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW???

WHY I DID NOT EVEN KNOW ABOUT THIS??????

HATTA BESAR KUMAN PUN AKU TAK TAHU?? AND I JUST KNEW IT 5 MINUTES AGO?

OHH MY I CANNOT BRAIN THIS!!

Life

Today remarks as it has been seven weeks I live as a uni life. There are a lot of things that I faced everyday with ups and downs. I dont know how come I can overcome till the seventh weeks. I have seven weeks more till the finale exam. Go to classes with my lovely housemate, and sometimes go to class alone especially on monday and thursday morning just like today. 

Week 12
Monday blues as always because it's monday todayyyy. Class of usul fiqh was okey but am a bit sleepy during my classmates did their presentation. I swear everytime my clasmates do the presentation I will be sleepy. lol.  Another two weeks to go before finale exam and it feel so fast. Like my housemate say sem ni paling barai and paling cepat. 

Acap

Tangan ibu aku salam kemudian pipinya aku cium sayang. The moment I hugged her, she said to me please make a lots of dua for Acap. And I asked ibu back why? So she told me acap's finale exam result will be out next week. I am totally speechless. All I do after that was called acap and hugged him because Kak Anis is waiting for me to. We packed out things and loaded into the car and went back to college. Along the journey  I said to myself after all this time I just make a dua for the person that I love and also for my results with my friends but I totally forgot about acap. I felt so useless gila masa tu. lol. May you get the best result because I know you did try your best Acap. :) 

Strong

I remember I'd asked one of my friend(met her during form 6) about how to be strong? And few minutes later she replied me on twitter saying "always believe that Allah SWT gave the test based on the ability of His servant, refer to surah al Baqarah verse 286 and believe that everything that happened there is always a hikmah." Well surprisingly when I refer to that verse it was ayah that I always recite in before class start.

"Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people." 

Pergantungan

Untuk setiap langkah dan pergantungan aku serahkan semuanya padaMu. Maafkan andai aku tidak bergantung sepenuhnya padaMu. Tuhan bila mana aku masih diberi kesempatan, izinkan aku untuk mencintaiMu dengan sepenuh hati. 

Alone

Alone. Yes alone. Just me, myself and I. I'm not hiding with everyone, it just I love to be alone sometimes. Went to bookstore and read all the books without any distraction and spend your time there is the best feeling ever!! Or read my favourite while sipping a coffee in a quite place. Library to be exact. 

Alone in my own space, I feel free. :)

Back

Heyyy finally I'm back after several months without blogging. Well college has start last month and currently I'm a bit busy. Every night I promised myself that I'll write in blog unfortunately I do have an internet problem. It sucks y'know when you really reallyyyyy excited to write but internet like siput sedut. College life was okeyyyy and I hope it will be okey till last day of term. Anyways mid term break already starts and here I am in my home. Feel so blessed. :D

Usrah

Rukun usrah:-

1)Taaruf which mean introduce

2)Tafahum which mean understand

3)Takafur which mean help each other

Cinta atas dasar aqidah. Tanda kita beriman bila kita mencintai orang lain sama seperti diri kita sendiri. Meanwhile, ukhuwah dari sudut Imam Hasan Al Banna means:-

-Sebab seronok

-Untuk kepentingan peribadi

-Untuk kebaikan akhirat

The three points above kena diikat dengan iman dan taqwa. :)

My lecturer

First day of class my lovely lecturer, we called her Ustazah Syu told us "if faculty acis takut al-Quran maknanya hang la hantu. Orang takut dengan malaikat hang takut dengan iblis. Artis boleh insaf takkan budak acis tak boleh insaf?" 

And I was like Wowww!!! First day of class dah kena setepek macam ni. Macam kena tuju dengan peluru berpandu pun ye jugak rasanya. Although rasa macam woww-menusuk-ke-jantung-dan-kalbu-dan-pedih-dia-rasa-macam-tak-boleh-nak-bawak-bincang TAPI benda tu lah sebenarnya untuk sedarkan diri sendiri balik. Benda ghaib tu memang wujud tapi kita tak boleh takut dengan benda tu melebihi kita takutkan Allah SWT. Kitakan ada Dia. Patut takutkan Tuhan sendiri dari benda benda macam tu, sebab Allah SWT lagi Maha Kuasa. Whatever it is, back to basic. Such a good reminder to myself, classmates and all of us. Syukran jazilan ustazah Syu. :D 

President faculty

My president faculty once told us in our life if there is no tarbiah, your life is lifeless. Right after he said like that, I felt something kicked in my heart. Sound sarcastic to me though. But, it actually works. The president was right. Syukran jazilan president. And yeahh I found my ohsem buddies group of usrah. 

Pesan Abah

I remembered last year exactly during Ramdhan, all my family members sat around the dining table. We were waiting for the Adhan to break our fast. Abah once said to us "kita ni dah la tak berdakwah then when some people come to us nak berdakwah kita halang dia orang pulak. Mana boleh macam tu." 

For example, orang tabligh. Usually, during Ramadhan they will come to each musolla or masjid. They come for menghidupkan masjid or musolla. They will come to each house and ajak all the neighbourhood. Usually in midnight they will perform solat hajat, solat tahajjud, solat taubat and do qiamulillail. The tabligh people datang musolla or masjid to do some programme during Ramadhan and kita halang dengan cara nak tutup masjid or musolla. Adil ke macam tu?" I swaer by the time my Abah said macam tu my heart broke into pieces. Abah was right. I asked myself thousand times aku ni ada buat kerja-kerja dakwah tak? And the answers is no. So, I said to myself lets support their dakwah by como to their lecture every night before or after terawih prayer. In addition, its aso can help me to boost my Imaan. :)

How Surah Ad-Dhuha can change your life!!

Hello and assalamuaaikum people!! :)

So, this post is a little bit different. Here are some tips that I got from Sheikh Tawfique Chowdhury on how surah Ad-Dhuha can change your life. I jot down each word that he said (proud of myself *flip hairs). Well not everything that he said I type in this blog. For more tips  you can search on youtube though. Its from Al Kauthar Institute. Kuddos to Al Kauthar Institute for upload the video. I love the talk because everytime I got angry, I'll listen to the talk. It helps me a little bit and soothing my soul. Told ya, Sh Tawfique explain each of surah Ad-Dhuha in a good way. Yea I mean, I cry everytime I watch the video. A must watch lecture for anyone looking for an Iman boost. :)

Here it goes... 

The greatest way to feel good in your heart is to read surah Ad-Dhuha because it is the most amazing surah in the Quran that tells you to be positive and to feel good about Allah Azza Wajalla. 

Should I tell you the meaning of surah Ad-Dhuha? In a way that you never heard before? Surah AD-Dhuha was reveal at a time when Prophet SAW did not receive the revelation from Allah swt for six months. For six months the Prophet SAW did not receive any revelation from Allah SWT. Jibriel didn't come down, He didn't see a dream. You know, there's a times when I used to see a good dreams and then these days when I'm busy with my subsmission and I'm so tired my brain is so tired actually go see dreams. 

Sometimes, I don't feel like my solat, my ibadah is actually making an impact on my heart and on my life. So I feel quite disconnected from Allah Azza Wajalla. Do you get feeling sometimes guys? Yes? Sometimes you feel like it's not effecting me. It's like Allah AWT is not responding to me, He's not talking to me, I don't see good dreams anymore, I don't get the shiver down my spine anymore, I'm not feeling the pleasure anymore. What's going on in the same way for six months Prophet SAW did not receive any revelation from Jibriel coming down all the way to a dream or nothing at what for sic months. And so the Prophet SAW thought that Allah SAW hate him. He thought Allah SAW does not want Him as Nabi more. So all these thoughts were coming in his mind.

Isn't that right when we start thinking the same? Some of our stuff like Oh My God Allah must hate me. Look at my life Allah SAW must really not want me. Look at the situation in my circumstances I must be wretched ground rod in human being. Allah must doesn't care anything, Allah don't even care about my dua. Sometimes this thoughts come to your mind. This is how the Prophet SAW was when the sooner the surah was revealed. 

So what did Allah SWT say? Allah SWT said:

والضحى  

"By the Sun and the morning in its blazing glory "

So the first thing that you tell someone who was depressed "wake up wake up. See the sunlight. It's not all the doomsday. It's not all doom and gloom. Is a beautiful sun out there, beautiful life 

The second problem with people who are depresssed is a stay of the nights. They go to the sleep in morning this lead stay up nights so everything is due me and gloomy. They have a bad sleep pattern. 

Erase

''Why there is no such eraser that I can use to erase the whole story of my life. I wont help anyone. No such things. Tak ada function. Ingatka berubah. Aku yang kena balik. At least berubah la sikit. In life, sometimes berharap itu mampu menjadi nyata tapi selalunya berharap itu tidak menjadikan sesuatu itu nyata. Jadi berhenti berharap dan teruskan kepada perlakuan.''

Miss

Its been a month since you left me. People may say a month is not longer. Thirty-days you left it feels like thirty years. Cliche right? But thats the truth. People may see me smile and laughing happily. People may say I'm okey after two or three weeks your left me. People may say I'm gonna okey after that. People may say I'm strong enough to face the fact that you left me. You left me alone. You left me when I need you the most. I used to have a roommate. I used to do everything with you. We used to do everything together. We used to stay up till late night and chit chat like there's no tomorrow. We used to fasting together on monday and thursday every week. Feels different, right? All those feelings weird, awkward, sad, alone are all in one. You even blocked me on whatsapp so that I'll never send you a messages. I don't mind if you blocked me on whatsapp. We stil have instagram, twitter, telegram and messages to get through. My Ibu said I've to give you some space to let you calm down. Hey girl I miss you. 

Amarah

Tuhan sepertinya faham amarah dalam hati ku. Lalu Dia turunkan hujan seperti menyiram amarah yang terpendam. Terima kasih Tuhan. Terima kasih untuk tiap ketenangan yang Kau berikan untuk hambaMu ini. Memang janji Tuhan benar. Sebutlah nama Dia pastinya kau tenang, kerna ketenangan itu akan kau peroleh bila kau menyebut namaNya.

Stole

Is it me the one who stole your friend? 
Is it me the one who stole your friend?

Is it me the one who stole your friend? 
If its true then I am truly apologise. 
Its not my intention to do so. 

9:57pm